yuan lai wo zai ta de xin mu zhong de di wei shi na me de di..
liang ge dou shi ta de peng you, wo he ta hai ren shi le na me jiu...
shuo you kao shi bu gou shi jian dan you neng join ta de fren party..
say me xiao qi! i am angry of u! this is call fren..hmm...
gdnitez...
until i receive the text msg from cherrish, as below
"i will arrive later...coz need to pray my mother"
was thinking thr...
asked ivan, he said cherrish parents wasnt here alr for many years.
shocked to know abt this. :(
she's jus 20 plus...and her parents werent here akr..:(
zhuk fuk kui...
the one who will listen to my heart....
i dont understand why father can be so supportive this time. i mean, worth meh?!
sometimes i felt like he's being too strict to me on certains things but at the same time giving me too much freedom on certain things too. i asked myself, whats the purpose for doing all these? what do you want from me? everything you say, do u mean it or? Are you tryin to teach me in a way that u think its best to me? Or you want me to find it out and tell you ah...i found it?!
watever i do, i ll get a lot of comments! and advises. Yesterday, i told him how i feel. i told him i dont like that kind of feeling...asking someone to do something=i donohowtosay! i told him hw much i dont like tat feeling. he said nothing much, just says, next time u ll face more feelings tat you dont want to. tat time, i realy feel like cry out alr...... its so horrible! how long can i endure i ask myself again? i am not doin bad things also, i am just doin what i shld do and help them, not killing them or lead them to a dead road. success or fail, it needs to depends on themself alr...not my business! if i can do it, then why not you? Have u ever think tat its ur own problem? just dont give urself so much excuses and put the blame on other people. it wont help.....
hey guess wat? some of my frens asked the same question lately...
"myee, r u havin financial problem lately?" "you need money?"
lols... yeah, i want money but i dont need money coz my parents will give me. AND i am not having any finnncial prob!
my frens, not very close lah...seein me so bs lately since i start workin and study for exam...its not weird even if they ask.. AGAIN, i ask myself, why do i work?! why not i just stop workin and just enjoy my life! why give myself so much work and limited time!? scare next time no job meh.....sighzz......or maybe i scare no chance to work after i graduate from uni....lolss..sigh..... why my mind have so many "whys" and keep asking myself why this and that..too many questions alr... but its a good thing...to prove my brain is not rusting but functioning well like a normal human being..
another thing, my heart is too fragile and easily hurt... any cure ma??
Father sponsor me to go for a trip next year, most probably taiwan to visit jiayu! butbut...cny.....i prefer to spend my cny with familes and frens.....dun think its the right time to be in other country. stil can be considered...
i dont know how to care for someone...eveyrone i know :(
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limited... with BOF folder!! hoi sam! XD
beautiful~~thanku, i am sry...i jus need to write this out.
damn! damn! damn!
holy shyteee!
i hate this feeling!! pls go away
if anyone can understand this then its miracle...
things turn so much better after today! happy already now... :D
can't wait for hols and penang! guess play more than ahemn... S:S
tmr is my first paper. gdluck to myself and my frens.
my birthday's passed ... hm seh dek ler......i wan those memories to stay!
signoff~
03:21 21/10/09
today is my birthday!
i am officially 19 now. 19 or 20 ar?
heheh..
new year, new start. myee boleh..lol
i had a blast advanced birthday celeb with my mum and ah yi them last saturday. mu mum purposely came back earlier jus to celebrate with me. and save the exact day with my superman here. sadly, somehting bad had happened. superman's wife uncle had passed away yest night. superman did apologise to me yesterday night saying it was an accident and you know chinese, they say "sui", so cannot celebrate with me tonight as he promised me few weeks ago. was rly dissapointed at first and sad also, but but what to do... may that uncle rip. superman knows me well, he can hear through my voice and he knw i m nt happy with wat happened. he suggest to delay this celeb to nxt week. i told him it s meaningless alr to celeb after my bday.. he said it was okay to celeb later and not on the exact day, and he said it s not meaningless to celeb later... i accept this.
talkin back, mum gimme a big angpao, and invited some close relatives over.. i asked her not to invites so many people bt she insists to coz "yit lao" woh... okay lor... what else i got? Angpaoss, a pretty dress from ling ah yi, she bought it from HK brandin Korean. luv it. and some small gift frm the kids. XD great great... thx ah mi for all these!! muax
and also the laptop she buy for me. like mth like daughter. we re same blur!!! she tot i alr had my own laptop until she knw i didnt hav one so she get me one. got it 3 weeks ago but only see it few days ago. i luv the colour!!! XDXD
BIG BIG thanks to dady. the presents for this year is too big!! its priceless! best gift ever, luv superman! he's so understanding and real to me!!! my god, its bless to have such superman in my life! muaxx
life is great btw.
ciouz to study a bit first.
i take up my courage and i told my lunarians everything about it. My problems and all. Pride. pride had stop me from sayin..i felt so much better after expressing all out. hwever, i didnt get the last decision frm myself tat night. tat night was just a night of sharing my problems.. i still couldnt make up my mind.
i had several options,
first.stop my accounting now and find a new course tat i wish to study.
second. continue study until i got my cert and out to take another course.
third. continue study while i take another course.
forth. dun feel like writing here..
if i choose 1, then i wasted 2 years of studying. on the bright side says, i can study what i like and stop wasting another 2 years of accounting.
if i choose 3, i wouldn be able to do so many things in my life. this ll shorten my life
for the 2nd one, keep this first.
i didnt tell my family about it especially my dad and my grandma. i cannot imagine how they would feel. too dissapointed or lost faith in me? Before i let them know, i need to know what i wan first.
what i want? what i want for my future to be? i want to work for a job tat i like. i want to run my own business and work for myself not others. if i had such dream then why i go for accouting at first? Right after my spm, i told myself i didnt wan to waste my time and i giv up sooemthing and go for college to start my study. i took accounts because i think it can provide me a good living with high salary and its stable. every co. needs an accountant. so, i go for accoutning. First year foundation, i study and go for exam. study and examinations. i learn nothing new, everything is like secondary school subjects. Year 1 degree, deeper and started to learn more about accounting, thx god. hwever, as time passes by, as i get to knw more abt outside things rather than jus accounts, i had diff thoughts again. that is why i am facing this problem.. in the beginning, superman had alr warn me and gave me advises if i really wan to take this course. he knew i wont like it. but i nvr listen and follow my own way.. this is what happened.
hwever, time cannot be return. what i ve studied is what inside now. if i learn nothing in these 2 years, then i am a stupid. at least, i learned wat i paid. To start a business, i need capital $$. Doing a business, i need to do my accounts $$.. 2 years had passed. Another 2 more year, i m goin to complete my degree. what next after dgr i cannot make any decision yet. So, i am goin to continue my degree now, concentrate on the following years and complete my dgr with satisfy results while i earn my side income and at the same time enjoy the outside world whr i dun get to expereince inside the hse and uni...
no difference with what i am doing right now. the diff is only i will be more concentrate on my studies bcos i m aiming for better not just average. Fees have alr been paid out why not do it well instead of okayokay only. with these and money, i can do whatever i like. My own business and my interests, beutician.
feelin so low and dissapointed.
kanasai people luv doing kanasai things. i m not cursing at other people, jus expressin my feelin right now.
i worked for 3 days this time. and today's the last day. since i didnt get any sales in these 2 days, ofcoz i need to work for today,tats very normal for a sales person to do it that way and not to give up esp the last day! when doing sales, you ll never know what will happened in the next minutes! commitment. this is very important for a sales person or else, better stay home and do own stuff. :S
we get to know some leaders from johor. Flora her name, normal education with a good leadership. mayb u would said what i knw abt leadership and i wouud like to say tat if to compare my fren my upm,she cannot be compared! flora leads her teams well and during the briefing and sharing hour, what she said is what i totally agree! i like the way she presents it, the way she said it, the way she express it all out. it s all so real tats why we have to be realistic in this world. ofcoz, not everyone will agree with what she says we all know, whatver she said, we ll jus listen, whether we listne or not it all depends on the individual. A lot of us, listen already, in the heart saying "we ll do it" but in the end do nothing and even forget what she/he said.
Asking a customers to pay for somehting is rather hard but its not tat hard in fact. i have to say this, every customers sit down, they are all the "white mouse". they are just like a plain paper. in the starting,i still remember,unforgettable moments, when i work in the mines book fair. i felt pressure when i dealing with the customers. i dont like talking to them because i hate the way i am being rejected and questioned by them. because tat time my knowledge on this product was so little and i get panic when they ask me something tat i dont know! it was a hard time. once, i think some ways to improve my interaction skill with my customers just like talking to a stranger! i write on a piece of paper and start to write. almost like a dialogue and i tried to memorise it. however, it failed badly.. sad case. Diff customers have diff thoughts and therefore, they talked differently. whats in their mind, needs, and wants, are what we need to figure out first before the words come out from our mouth. each word we said can destroy the whole presentation and in the end, customers will lost their interest on this product and they will just walked off. we couldnt blame them, this is our service to our customers and customer is always the right! no matter what they said or asked, the only thing tat i can do is to deal with them and solve the questions. when problems are solved then they will "bind" you. "bind me" then they will sign. fair enough... no forcing no hard feeling. (:
some people are jus so funny! they came near you, asking you many questions, their purpose is to get info from you for FREE. there was a time when i get to persuade an old man to sit down and listen to my presentation. i present for almost an hour and in the end only i know he work for insurance. this also means tat they just wan to get info frm u and they will nvr bind ur product but theirs product. this also means tat talking to them(insurance agent, public mutual agents, investors and etc..) all these is just a waste of time because they will always go for their produvt first and think tat their product is the best. what i know is no product is perfect. it is perfect because u think it is perfect for you but tat doesnt mean its the same to others too.
after dealing with so many customers,i found out tat if that person has the heart to buy then they will buy. if they nvr tot to buy, then no matter what you said or hw good ur skills are they wont buy also. in special cases ho, its very nice if you able to convince ur customers to buy ur product even if they not interested to buy at first. customers are smart user. every single things they will ask until very details. kinda hard to talk to them especially with those very fussy customers. 1 after 1, day after day, i find it very easy to talk to my customers or even a stranger nw. i dun feel panic anymore unless i duno tat particular thing thn i ll call for help~ its rly nice to do sharing with someone u duno but the feeling is like we knw each other fr some time alr.. in cantonese, people said, "gin yan gong yan wa, gin gui gong gui wa". (:
by the time i do sharing with them, they share their things with me too. Alot i met told me things like investment, wher they invest and how they do their investment, So far i know most they would put a sum of money in funds, bonds those public mutual invt., wawasan2020, FD, and all kind of invsment. the purpose is only to make more money. to make profit. To do a financial planning is nt tat easy...being a financial planner can be quite fun also..hah..
i m being too long winded tonight. i jump till so far awaym, i supposed to talk on one thing only...
today, last day. also a critical day for all of us, tats normal. we all wont let go a single opportuniy infront us. we stand whole day long and i am feeling so sleepy alr now... goin to slp right after this .. continue tmr.... gdnite
it happens many times when i sign in to blogspot, my fingers on the board, and thinking what tp write. type all out and then backspace it. everything gone.
so fast, gonna face 2 papers next week...
continue later.. nap a while first
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have u really met or known a fren that know anything about magic and show it infront of you? i did! hahah..its really fun knowin a fren tat know magic!! he perform some magics shows using the two red balls look like watermelon, cards, coins, and rubber band. very HUGE COIN....lols.
niceee.............
he's the magic man.
i was asked to go to bai a sifu frm davidcoverfield. == and also davidfootballfield frm laugh till die. wt....... == hah
goin to slp like a pig now. presentation tmr! nite :D
myew's bday celebration at kissanten in Jaya One on the 1st of oct..
this song suit my mood now,
scared, and a lil confused.
every decision i made, i think and think over again, i afraid i ve made the wrong one, i do no want this to happen on me. sometimes decisions can cause a lot of troubles, and regrets. there ar solutions, but its better not to create any if there is no need to. there is nothing much tat could be done and think more.. i jus need to be sensible and independent. wish is just wish. guess action is what i shld consider first
maybe, or maybe i ve put too much effort on it, more than it shld be, i think its worth. i dont know hw and wat people think of it, i couldnt care much also, as long i knw what i am doing, tats enough. right?
am i weird to them or they are weird to me. i disagree with them and they disagree with me. why human can be so confusing? its so complex! so many diff ideas from millionsss of people. then tell me, which one to follow.
i think i am quite diff frm last time alr. normal? some might said yes and some might said no. so, did i change?
been so outgoin lately. time was packed with this and that. feel like goin for a trip! paris? keke.. really dont know where and how to start now. too many photos to upload, too many news to share, events tat had happened. where am i suppose to start. need some time to recall back and start writing it here. :D
had some good time with family and frens. its true that i cant live without them. my precious family and friends.
<3
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